I feel like I owe you guys a deep apology.
While I was searching the "archives" for my last post, I came across this post. The sting of my words in this post made me hang my head in shame. Over the last several days, the Lord has convicted and gently spoken to me about the tone and the words of that post. And y'all, I'm just so very sorry.
While there is truth in that post, the curtness and the coldness with which I wrote was uncalled for an, truly, unacceptable.
Yes, I felt those things. But the Lord is showing me that just because I feel something, and even if it is a valid feeling, that doesn't give me the right to spew hatred and anger. While this post may not have offended you and though while my feelings and emotions were real the Lord is pressing me to rethink how I sounded. I feel very led to apologize publically, most specifically over my comments on Questions 3 & 4.
So I pray that you will accept any offense I may have given you all over this post. And maybe it didn't offend any of you and this is just another piece of humility pie the Lord is asking me to eat. He's been dealing with me deeply in the area of pride so I won't be surprised if that's the case. Either way, thank you all for receiving what I say here with a spirit of grace. Thank you for allowing me to be real, honest, blunt and open. Thank you for standing with us in prayer as we walk through difficult trials and as we've emerged stronger and more in tune with the will of God on the other side.
As we continue this journey that God has us on, I know that having you all at our side, praying for us, encouraging us and asking us tough questions will prove to be invaluable.
Thank you.
I love you. Just sayin'
ReplyDeleteI'm confused...what was the original post? Anyway, you are someone who speaks from the heart... I love that about you. But if you are feeling conviction, than you are right to respond positively to it.
ReplyDeleteThanks guys. Lori - I was referencing this post:
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Ahhh... yes, I had read that post before.. and as you can imagine have had many of the same questions asked of myself or my family. I understand why you felt the apology necessary, but also think it might do some people good to hear how these questions feel to the person they are asking... we still get the "tell me again, which ones are adopted?"... does it matter?!... and "which ones are yours? and which ones are...?" they never finish that last question, guess they are not sure what is the appropriate term... they are all ours and it doesn't matter how they came to be part of our family. Oh and the "hands full"... yes, very tiring...as well as the "we could never foster, it would be too hard for us to give them up"...fostering is not for everyone, neither is adoption, but we who have done it.. know it was God and not us.
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